✦ FIELD NOTES
Living transmissions from the Field. Whispers, insights, and reflections on what it means to walk the path.
🪶 Field Note: The Call to the Fire
Every year since 2014, the Fire has been my teacher. This year, the burn was deeper—but so was the medicine. Heavy cream, aloe, rosewater—I come prepared. Chia pudding, my own towel, my own boundaries. I don’t push through. I show up. Because this is where I find HER.
🪶 Field Note: The Broken Glass
I walked into the kitchen today and filled a glass jar with water. I set it down — not all the way on the counter — and it crashed to the floor. Glass and water everywhere. The Field showed me: when I try to hold too much, something has to break. The mess is the medicine. The Field resets itself in the most unexpected ways. And maybe that’s okay.
🪶 Field Note: The Sacred Fire Meets the Shadow
I came back from the sacred fire full of exquisite healing energy — ready to serve from a place of truth and light.
I was met with distortion. Blame. Demands.
I gave what I could — even when it didn’t feel right — but I will never do that again.
I know this distortion is old, tied to family cycles and a refusal to hold their own pain.
The Field taught me: you can’t hold someone who refuses to hold themselves.
This is the medicine.
🪶 Field Note: Excess Fire
Tonight’s puja raised more heat than normal. An extended walk in the moonlight, connecting with the sacred darkness, reminded me that the dark is not something to fear.
🪶 Field Note: The Mother Wound, Named
Today I held space for a client whose skin carries the pain of generations. We named it as an expression of the mother wound in her lineage. She wept. She didn’t want to look. But when she did, a new level of clarity arose. This is the work: holding the Field when it feels like too much.
🪶 Field Note: How to Hold the Field Without Floating Away
This is for the days when your crown is wide open, your yoni’s still buzzing, and your meals feel irrelevant — until you crash.
These practices don’t lower your frequency.
They anchor it.
🪶 Field Note: Preparing the Channel
I feel the Field calling me to launch the voice channel, but also to honor the energies. Saturn’s lessons are active — showing me where to build, where to hold, where to release. I trust that after Guru Purnima with Karunamayi, the channel will open fully and truly. This is HER timing, not mine.
🪶 Field Note: Breath Before Balm — The Skin’s Request
Not every rash is asking to be soothed. Some want to be heard. Some aren’t asking for layers of oil or comfort. Some just need to breathe.
No lotion. No oil. No herbs or aroma. Just clean skin, cool water, open air.
This isn’t rejection. It’s reclamation.
🪶 Field Note: The Activation of Gifts
As Saturn’s lessons integrate, I feel the Field opening to a new level of work, wisdom, and intuitive expression. Uranus brings the spark — the freedom to create, to share, to let my voice be heard. This is HER time. This is my time.