✦ The Archive
Where the Spell Was First Broken
Before the Field revealed herself, there was the unraveling.
There were stories I had to live all the way through—
illusions I had to hold until they dissolved in my hands.
This page holds those echoes.
These aren’t just blogs.
They are transmissions wrapped in language.
They carry the memory of what it took to see through the spell.
To meet Maya.
To walk HER Leela.
To remember that what’s false often has to be fully lived before it can be released.
Read them as breadcrumbs.
Read them as mirrors.
Read them when you’re ready to remember what you already know.
The Lost Flame: Rediscovering Fire’s Sacred Power
I’ve been attending Maha Yagnams since 2014—yes, back when Instagram filters were still in their awkward teenage years. Every year, I sit at the sacred fire: mornings for homas, evenings for pujas, with a break in between. But this year? This year was different.
Saturday’s fire ceremony was five hours long. And let me tell you: it was the most intense day I’ve ever had at the fire. I’m not talking about “ugh, it’s hot and I’m a little sweaty” intense. I’m talking raw, burning, life-altering intense. It was the first time I ever had to step away from my fire—because I thought I was going to explode.
Re-Sensitizing the Soul
There was a time when being sensitive was a superpower.
You could feel the wind shift before the storm came.
You could walk into a room and know exactly what was unspoken.
But somewhere along the way —
after enough heartbreak, headlines, and human unraveling —
sensitivity became a liability.
Spiritual Tourists vs. True Initiates
We’ve all seen it.
Some of us have been it.
The curated altars. The incense.
The mantras that roll off the tongue with perfect pronunciation—
but none of it has entered the body.
None of it has undone you.
And if it hasn’t undone you…
it hasn’t truly touched you.
This isn’t a takedown.
This is a truth-telling.
A mirror.
A moment.
Sacred Geometry: Activating Cosmic Intelligence Through Form
Sacred geometry is more than just beautiful patterns—it is the blueprint of existence, a direct reflection of cosmic intelligence. When we create and work with sacred geometry grids, we are not just making art; we are engaging with the fundamental structures of reality, tuning our consciousness to the divine order that permeates all things.
The Sacred Architecture of Reality – The Quadrivium & the Cosmic Mind
The Universe as Number, Harmony, and Order
The ancients didn’t see the Quadrivium as just an intellectual pursuit—it was a way to align the human mind with the intelligence of the cosmos. They understood that reality is not random or chaotic, but deeply structured through number, proportion, vibration, and movement. This understanding can be found in:
Sacred geometry – The mathematical design embedded in nature, from the spiral of galaxies to the pattern of a sunflower.
Harmonic resonance – The way sound and vibration influence consciousness and physical reality.
Celestial mechanics – The movements of the planets mirroring cycles of time, consciousness, and evolution.
When we engage with these disciplines, we aren’t just learning abstract theories—we are tuning into the foundational intelligence that permeates existence.
The Future of Intelligence: Reviving the Lost Art of True Thinking
Philosophy was never intended to be an academic exercise of studying what others have said—it was meant to be a way of life. The greatest thinkers of the ancient world—Socrates, Pythagoras, Da Vinci—were not merely philosophers; they were polymaths. They didn’t just think about wisdom; they embodied it through mathematics, music, science, art, and spiritual exploration.
Unlocking Higher Intelligence – The Ancient Path to Awakening
What if the key to higher intelligence—and even enlightenment—wasn’t just meditation or spiritual practice, but an ancient system of knowledge designed to unlock the deepest layers of the mind? The Quadrivium, a framework used by the ancients, offers a path to expanding consciousness through four key disciplines: Arithmetic, Geometry, Music, and Astronomy. More than just academic subjects, these four studies were considered essential for activating different parts of the brain and aligning human intelligence with the greater cosmic order.
Why Nothing is NOT God’s Plan (And If You Think It Is, You’re Missing the Joke)
Some people really believe they’re the main character in God’s favorite TV show. They think everything happening in the world is just side plot drama while they alone are the righteous, chosen, or enlightened ones. And of course, when something goes their way, it’s “God’s divine will.” But when it doesn’t? Suddenly, it’s the devil, corruption, persecution, or the collapse of civilization.
Here’s a reality check: Everything is God’s plan.
America: The Empire of Illusion
Welcome to America: The Land of the Free… to Be Lied To.
No country does illusion better. None.
We don’t just live in illusion—we worship it, sell it, export it, and defend it with our lives.
We call it "The American Dream," but what it really is?
A masterclass in mind control.
Mysterium Tremendum: When the Divine Breaks You Open
Mysterium tremendum—a phrase coined by theologian Rudolf Otto—is the experience of encountering the vast, awe-inspiring, and sometimes terrifying presence of the Divine. It is the feeling of being utterly small and yet profoundly connected. It is the rush of energy that overtakes you when you stand on the precipice of something beyond comprehension.
The Churning of the Ocean: The Struggle for Truth & Deep Thinking (Part 2)
In Part 1, we explored how deep thinking is a lost art, an effort that few people engage in, yet one that holds immense power. Now, we take a step further, using an ancient myth to unlock the true nature of mental alchemy—the ability to think deeply, critically, and transformatively.
HER Many Forms: The Vastness of Mahamaya & HER Shifting Expressions
Mahamaya, the Great Illusion, is not a singular force but an ever-shifting, ever-evolving presence. She takes many forms, adapting, disguising, revealing—never still, never predictable.
Throughout history and across traditions, SHE has been known by many names, embodied in countless archetypes, and woven into every aspect of existence. HER reach extends beyond time, beyond culture, beyond definition.
Maya’s Lessons: Every Challenge is an Initiation—HER Way of Teaching
Maya is not just the great weaver of illusion—SHE is also the great initiator. Every hardship, every loss, every moment of doubt or fear is HER invitation to rise. To see more clearly, to move more freely, to awaken.
Many view challenges as obstacles, roadblocks to happiness, as if life is conspiring against them. But in reality? Every single difficulty is HER lesson and HER opportunity. SHE teaches through contrast. Through discomfort. Through the very illusion that we often try to escape.
Maya & Freedom: The Illusion as the Doorway to Liberation
Maya is often seen as the enemy of liberation—the great deceiver who keeps us bound to illusion. But what if Maya is not a prison, but a passageway? What if the very illusion we seek to escape is the doorway to our freedom?
SHE does not simply obscure reality—SHE reveals it. But only to those who learn to see beyond HER veils.
The Paradox of Liberation
Many seekers believe that awakening means rejecting Maya, dissolving HER, or escaping the illusion altogether. But if Maya is the architect of existence itself, then escaping HER is impossible.
Freedom is not found outside of Maya—it is found within HER.
Dancing with Maya: Navigating the Illusion with Awareness & Joy
The Illusion is Alive—And So Are You
The biggest misunderstanding about Maya is that she is some cruel trickster keeping us from enlightenment. In reality, she is the fabric of existence itself. Without Maya, there is no world, no self, no experience. She is the stage, the actors, and the script—all at once. The key is learning how to move with her, rather than against her.
Who is Maya? The Power Behind the Illusion
Maya. The great weaver. The mother of illusion. The force behind reality as we know it.
She is not just an abstract concept—SHE is alive, moving through existence, shaping perception, experience, and belief. SHE is both the veil and the revealer. The one who binds and the one who liberates. Without HER, there would be no world, no self, no journey.
The Matrix is Real: How You’ve Been Programmed Since Birth
We like to think we are free thinkers, making independent choices, forming our own beliefs. But what if those beliefs were planted? What if the world we see is a carefully crafted narrative designed to keep us from waking up?
This isn’t science fiction. It’s the matrix of conditioning, and you’ve been plugged into it your entire life.
What is Truth? Can We Ever Really Know It?
Truth is one of the most elusive and debated concepts in human history. Philosophers, mystics, and scientists alike have dedicated lifetimes to defining it, yet it remains slippery—always just beyond absolute certainty. In a world where deception is woven into the very fabric of existence, the question isn’t just what is truth, but how do we discern it?
The Illusion of Choice: Did You Ever Agree to This?
Maya—the veil of illusion—keeps us entangled in narratives we never agreed to. These stories shape how we see ourselves, what we believe we need, and who we think we should be. But what if you never actually agreed to any of it?
If someone asked you outright if you'd be okay with being manipulated—told what to want, how to look, what to buy, and even how to feel—your answer would likely be a firm, resounding “No.”
No one wants to admit they’re being controlled like a puppet on a string.
But here’s the cold, hard truth: You are.